if there is a god why has he done this to me. im a freak. im a freak. i disgust myself.

these thoughts, these dreams. no no no no no no no god why. feels like two voices in my head and i don't know which is the good one. i was so normal once. i == they're back again. all the thoughts i hate myself for. nothing violent, nothing like that. but you will hate them. if you knew, you would understand why I hate them, and you'll encourage me to hate them.i cant stand myself sometimes



there's no place where I belong..two voices in my head. i don't want to be alone.
don't lie to me. all i can do is just keep trying to live my life while this slowly consumes me. don't even bother trying to tell anyone, they'll only hate you more. life is so fun fun fun fun fun>rock myself back and forth back and forth back and forth back and forth back and forthhhhhhhbackandforthh is this my fault do i deserve this

you want me to be specific?? you want an excuse to hate me? i know what you are